Awakening

This is a new Blog chapter in my life.
I am all that I have experienced in my 59 years. A sweet, innocent obedient eager child who has been abandoned by her father and first husband, physically beaten by her step father and second husband and is now moving into the wisdom years. with severe vision loss.
Oh, shucks, maybe my vision is internal:'seeing with the eyes of my heart', at last.
A Yoga Retreat to Sleeping Lady near Leavenworth has allowed me to examine a few of my fears, in the company of my kula and love even my brokenness and that is why I must write.
I have acknowledged that I am filled with fear, even in leaving my house. (I may fall.)
If I do not examine these limitations and thoughts and see myself as a much larger, stronger woman I will be imprisoned. An awakening happened about a week ago in savasana. As I lay on my back, I realized that for most all of my first 40 plus years I have been trying to please someone. And fulfill their expectations of who I should be. And As I stretched out on my mat I knew I was so much larger, SO VAST in fact that I was in awe of my vastness. That was a great day. . .I am now eager to explore these regions of my being although there is fear to face.